如果的事 · 31 - 10 -2009 saturday sunny

Although it is the sunny day, my heart turns to rain again...

Well.. Auntie pick me to cut my hair, before that I want to dye it to red like last time, but I forget to ask her to buy the colouring for me so I can’t dye it.. no chance.

Elder sister keep on calling me to scold me on yesterday stuff.. After that I accompany my mum to visit my uncle at hospital for he is sick in can’t sleep at night and always get afraid on nothing. Sitting among all the psychological patients, I can feel sympathize to them. This is not they choose to be and yet they have to face the truth. For they are not crazy but lonely with no family besides them or some of them have a over stress to face. Some of them look normal and yet they are quiet.

Walk back from hospital to home, we went for a coffee shop for our lunch, hungry tummy calls me but I cannot taking in any food just drinks some juice. Mummy called for Pastor Steven for help to pray for our family with my dad talking nonsense to her that make her feel unsafe. I was ashame for why my family will be like this?? In front of you guys, you will just realize that 

I will face this kind of stuff and you will see I always make fun and jokes all around. For I didn’t go for the praise and worship practice with FGCJB members that I cried for few hours nonstop. Stop forcing me to death. I don’t know that what will be going to happen on me after this moment.

Quite evening in our family dinner time, I refuse to eat with them and I hate to do so. Why they cannot like others family which pay care, lovely and kindness to we, children? Taste odourless the meal. Pray to god to help to fix it. Miss the dinner time with pastor Jerry last time. Kinda miss that time which he always cares about me. How are you, pastor? Are you at the right of god’s hand in the heaven?

如果的事 · 30 - 10 - 2009 friday sunny

Today is worst for me. After going dinner with Ewin and wait for her cousin to facial, my handphone suddenly turn off and daddy can’t get me so again I get scold by mom and dad. My sisters start to blame on me and they give warning to me if the family broke down which mean the cause is me!! Again I feel like I am staying in the hell, do you guys think that I purposely to switch it off?? Why you guys just like a bitch that don’t want to listen to what I am trying to say? This journey for choosing DMK was your plan for me and it was not what I want to be.

You guys just blaming that I was like a ‘princess’ stay at home whole day and doing nothing? 

But don’t you think about that I didn’t have any transport? I didn’t have such a great qualification to teach in primary kids’ tuition? As you know that these days’ have a great different compare to what we learn last time. Then how about you guys?? Don’t you ever think that my time has a big gap? I wake up at six when you all were still sleeping, follow daddy to bus station to take college bus to school or waiting eldest cousin to pick me after her business. 

Back home at lately six in the evening, after dinner I have to rush my homework some more have to teach Sandra homework and grammar. All my days is full like a primary kid, even worst to say that I am just like a child rush here and there to class then back home?

Mummy use to scare me that she will be going to move out of this family after my eldest sister marriage, daddy said that one day when he can’t stand for it, he will be going to kill me. So what to do? Are you tried to push me to death? In front of all people, you act like a nice and well manner parent and yet in another way round, you making fool on me. 

You have stress as you said unto me but end up I also have my own trouble to fix it. Everyone has a problem and yet you push it all to me. What to do? Teach me…

Try not to see their face, I ask my cousin to accompany me to night market either to look for shoes or some snacks to just waste the time to see those faces. I know that we have to respect elders and yet I can’t make it.

如果的事 · 29 - 10- 2009 thursday rainny

During the account class, we all asked to show the working to the lecturer and this is just like when I was in six attending the kinder garden. Luckily I have done all the tutorial work or not again I will just like last week have to do a double portion homework.
So I ask Shyen to pick me up tomorrow because the macro class has change to tomorrow. Again, we went to Harvest In Café and we all enjoyed the food there. For the ‘real’ Chinese – Ewin thus enjoy the western tomyam fried rice. Helix refuse to join us because he had already having mhis meal before the class so we all share the Croissant Ham & Cheese together and discuss our ORG assignment.

They all had forgot to do the English performance outline which we got to hand in tomorrow during the lesson, so Momo, Hansson, Hulgaris and Manzy skip the class to finish it and maybe they won’t be attend tomorrow class. They all got to go for work (line service).

Today just go through with nothing special. But one thing I was angry and smphathise about is that the form 5 girl, Hui Lin is blind now because that day the acid poured by her daddy towards her and her mom is totally harm to her both eyes and my friend cousin who same class with her told us that her face is totally damaged cause it is high corrosion. Poor girl.. guys!! Please pray for her ya..

如果的事 · Ghost? 27 - 10 - 2009 Tuesday sunny

This is a funniest day to make fool to Yvonne for she scare on ghost stuff. I was just calling her name and the pole is blocked my whole body until she can’t even realize that was me, so she not dare to look at me for she is scare about it.
The IT class was just a few of us join the lecture hall, Theresa (IT lecture) was so angry about that and she was asking us why just a few of the students join the class yet we don’t know how to answer her. Well, it is just a quick teaching on today lesson for we all had a boring mood to study so dismiss early!!

After having a quick lunch at the corner hawker stall, we make noise there and this makes me feel fun again because our gang is just ‘back’!! making fun was just our ‘habit’, we shout, we laugh and we fooling around, at the moment the stupid cat walk by and the tail swept my legs and I just shout out for I taught that was other thing else.

Everyone is talking on what they scare about, we just point our fingers on Hansson that he scare on insects and all animals. I still can remember the scene he shouted out loud when the lizard is near to him, and we all laugh at this useless fella (joking).

Everything turns bad when the IT tutorial class was start. Our tutor, Ms Chin was just make fool to our gang for momo (Chris) and Hansson were tried to make funny on her so she hate our gang so much. Everything just fine until the mouse point is missing so I ask Jit Hou to fix it for me and yet the computer just hang and all things turn black so I put up both of my hands and tried to ask for help and you know what’s the tutor said to me?? She said the words with a high tune : ‘there is many computers in front isn’t?’ and she refuse to come and help me. 


I don’t want to change another computer because I just finish my work with Natalie yet she ask us to change and the computer was lack and it looks like older than me with a slow motion. Survine was laughing at me as the computer at the laboratory is stuck. The time for us to finish the assignment is short and she wants us to hand in now but as I just said that we have to retype but she just walk out the room and told us that she don’t want to accept it any more. As you guys know that I cannot stay calm if the one try to make fool on me so I can’t concentrate on the assignment although I know how to do and what to do. Ewin here was scolding me and she helped me to complete all the calculation. I can’t imagine that why you guys can use this kind of lousy computers?? She didn’t ask us to bring along pendrive and yet she wants us to use it to transfer the assignment to her.. what the hack she wants huh??

The end I miss the bus, can’t go home by the right time and it was a tired day for me and same to my eldest sister who facing friendship problem with her childish colleague.. It is a childish way to handle this kind of auntie level friend so be OPEN MINDED !!!

如果的事 · Secret Receipy day

hot chocolate

ice lemon tea

new york cheese cake

vienna brownies

It is a worst day for me because again the class in nearly to 5.30pm, the macro tutorial class was postponed to Friday. Then I went to my brother in law’s shop to wait for daddy to pick me up. Well.. I am still missing yesterday secret recipe’s brownies as it serve in hot and nice. Survine ordered the New York cheese cake and Vienna brownies to share together. After that, she went to same stall inside the Gurney Plaza to look for new bags and survey for her love’s one birthday present. Seiko was the brand she wants to choose for this gift, it is nice and look young too. 


The ORG exam just now was easy and yet I think I will get two wrong because Shyen told me that’s the wrong answer so I change it but after the test, I were checking it at the bus found that actually my answer for the previous one is correct!! Damn!!
After gone home, I ask my eldest cousin to reserve 3 pumpkin for Yvonne that they want to make pumpkin face for the coming ‘Hallowine night’. They are quite funny to ask me to bring the pumpkin to college!!! Oh man, that’s joking right?


Someone ask me why I change my blog channel to English?? The reason is that some of my friends who is English educated ask me to do so. That’s why I didn’t write in Chinese for quite a long time.

如果的事 · 26 - 10 - 2009 monday sunny

Today was nothing special happen on this new Monday.. This is already the 4th week of second semester. I am always think that the time pass by was fast and it is quite lonely to stay at marketing class.. It seems like a gap between me and my fellow classmate. Again the test is around the corner, have you guys well prepared??
The stupid SSDP program for English Language was stuck, I can’t even join once in this semester and the last semester also the same, the reason is ‘full, sorry’. Hey this is a lousy respond, okay?!! So this semester, again I failed to join so although I ask Joshua to ask me for the chance and he would like to give me his place and yet Ms Cheng said we can’t just simply change the arrangement. Well, let just says that god will make a way.
After having lunch with Xuer, Jenny, Helix at college canteen (the food is lousy and quite expensive as everyone agree), I follow helix back to their hostel to finish up my English performance script, using his lousy printer (water inside the printer because last week they forgot to switch off the water tape and the water was all over the place). I use to print for 7 pieces of assignment but he just told me that his printer was lack of ink, I already told you guys pray before use it.. Don’t want to trust me that’s the truth!!

Oh man, Helix here was crazy that he ask me to go for the macroeconomics class an hour early?? Huiyo, what happen to him?? Noob, dude!!! Laughed by the whole gang for his face is funny. During the class, he ask me to give some idea for his anniversary with Hersing. He said he want to make 99 money roses for her and yet he said he change his mind to give her a fragrance. But don’t you just give her a Gucci brand last month?? So rich man..

After the class, I went to my cousin house to make some list of the vegetables for her in her vegetable manufacture business. Their printer is quite slow, the ink quality is not so good compared to my K mak’s Brother’s brand. Having some fruits with my nephew and my niece, we tried to ask my nephew some English question because he is attending the English tuition ‘Smart Reader Kids’, yet he failed to answer our question as his answer is funny.

Again I sat in front of the computer, tried to type the ‘Organization and management’ assignment, I think out many ideas about that but I can’t type it out because it is too many to write it out.

如果的事 · Sick

again, esther feeling not well this few days and weeks..
that's why I am already not update my blog for many days. So sorry about that..

already whole week long I didn't update my blog.. It i not because that I felt boring on it, bt is too many stress, unhappiness and sicknesses all around me..

tell you guys something.. one day, a guy ask me to go out, but I just ignore it and ask him go and find my friend, the end.. I get scold by my mom that I push t others..funny